Whoever said vulnerability showed weakness and powerlessness couldn’t have got it more wrong.
Being vulnerable takes courage and bravery to open up and be your own authentic self.
I have always felt a sense of embarrassment about my struggles with ED and depression.
I’d pushed people away and I wasn’t always truthful about my past and I continued to deny that I had/have struggles.
I used to feel that I shouldn’t talk about it to others and felt like my struggles would make people want to run and hide from me. I can now see that the only person running away was me.
Since moving from Sydney four months ago I have met a great group of friends and have also learnt that my fear of being vulnerable showed that I wouldn’t allow people to like me for who I really am. Instead of letting go and accepting my past and the person whom I am today, I was prepared to hold up a guard for my protection and for a decent amount of time.
Allowing myself to be completely vulnerable isn’t something I had thought of doing.
I saw the stigma behind it and wanted no part in it.
I would stick to the rules and ask for advice whenever possible to make sure I didn’t say anything inappropriate or put a foot in the wrong place.
As I have mentioned, this year is about finding my authentic self. Throughout this year I have made huge progress in finding and living in my serenity, but the fear of being vulnerable and being 100% honest in regard to my words is something I now see is what needs to be taken care of.
For the past fortnight I have been an open book. Vulnerable.
People have asked me questions and I haven’t sugar coated any answers.
I haven’t allowed myself to feel embarrassed or apologetic about my past or how I choose to live my life.
I have thrown out the book of rules that contain all the dos and don’ts in what you should do or say in certain situations and relationships. I have taken the time to dig deep and ask what I really want or think I should do, without any social pressure or other influences.
With this decision came a lot more self respect and love towards myself.
It feels as if a weight has come off my shoulders by saying to the universe “This is who I am and I’m not afraid to be me”.
This is the message I encourage all of you say to the universe from today onwards.
Vulnerability doesn’t deserve the stigma. It deserves the recognition of empowerment and self respect.
As always, I would love to hear your thoughts in on this topic in the comments below 🙂
Be kind to yourself,